songs..

Listening to a song could be an experience, and it’s various.

it could emerging and refreshing, we could feel happy, extraordinary, even melancholic one.

and i thinks it depends on the tone, pitch , composition of the songs and of course its lyrics.

i think for common people like myself, lyrics has the biggest influence to drive the feeling, sense, taste, sensation, of ourselves , moreover when in a middle of a things.

the things, let’s say, it could be love, sympathizing on something, and etc.

oh , and it could saving people from killing themself, like the one in a movie “Yes Man”, the song by Third Eye Blind – Jumper, save the man and i like the song.

anyway for me, recently, songs also has its influence in my life, here are the list of songs :

1. Coldplay – Fix You
2. Maroon 5 – harder to breath
3. Andy Williams – Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head
4. Ronan Keating – When you say nothing at all
5. Avenged Sevenfold – Dear God
6. Radiohead – Creep
7. U2 – With or Without you

lyrics of the songs makes me wonder and think, i shouldn’t distressed, mourn more than it should be there’s still an option to choose, a path to walk, like the lyrics

Lights will guide you home,
.:: Coldplay – Fix You ::.

and home, where i want to be.there is always the best for me.

lament must be forbid, lets open my eyes, my mind and my heart,,

I never thought it would come to this
And i,
I want you to know
Everyones got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
.:: Third Eye’s Blind – Jumper ::.

maybe, i’ve passed this dark and stupidity,, nope.. it’s not stupidiy it’s a lesson, lesson that i’ve learned.

 

make it simple..

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams!
Live the life you’ve imagined.
As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.

–Henry David Thoreau–

just make it simple as it is.. my friend used to tell me that, “make it simple”.. everything has its path.

have faith in any of the dreams. dream will come arise..

heu..

Just one, make it simple!!!

 

chess player

Avoid the crowd. Do your own thinking independently. Be the chess player, not the chess piece.

– Ralph Charell –

it is the way i should do, ? be smarter, be more agile, be more creative, think more and do more.

then again , must i really avoid the crowd. ??

the question is “could i really avoid the crowd?”

hmmm, be the chess player.. who moves the pieces wherever, whenever it takes.. okay then, get to it!!

 

unspoken

unspoken thought, soon will be forgotten,

that’s what i feel for the last few days, because of i didnt have the chance to speak it up , or i didnt make the chance, or maybe the chance didnt come to me,

and now time pass by, i really dont know, and dont sure, if i could to speak it up to the roof

my wish for this time being,…. is unspoken!!!

and again , maybe

The most profound statements are often said in silence.

–Lynn Johnston –

 

image

image —n. 1 representation of an object, e.g. a statue. 2 reputation or persona of a person, company, etc. 3 appearance as seen in a mirror or through a lens. 4 mental picture or idea. 5 simile or metaphor. —v. (-ging) 1 make an image of; portray. 2 reflect, mirror. 3 describe or imagine vividly.  be the image of be or look exactly like. [Latin imago imagin-]

That is what i get from oxford pocket dictionary.

Image, i take it as i am, who i’m supposed to be, let other to take their own perception, anyway, sometimes i don’t give a damn, i’m who i am whatever you think, does it mind me ? no at all,..

judgement didn’t come from pure thought, if anyone says contrary i could assume it’s only BS, judgement is taken from the past,

so i ask, didn’t someone have their own past?

as i read the dictionary , image mean reputation, mental picture. so, couldn’t it be change ?? some will answer it depends, depends on what ?? on whose standards ? on which standards?? on whose policy?? on whose judgement? who have the right for taking evaluation?? the judge? board of value ??

and i laugh. everyone has their image on their own , has the right to judge, has the right to have an opinion..

so what’s bother, huh..

what an egoistic writing , don’t i think so…

 

relieving..

the one most thing relieving is having an answer for my question, answer after answer for every curiosity that comes up. in fact, if possible, all i want to do is taking first chance to ask, to get answers.

Getting answers is so relieving, heu!!!

and everyday here they comes so many questions to face.

 

(just another) Family Quarrel

It’s been a while since i’ve heard it last. I think, it’s quite a long time as i recall. Father screaming to their sons or daughters, yelling unproper language, the sons would be very lucky if a slap didnt land on their cheek. Some mother just sit in the corner, wait for things to abate, some others get involved and make it worse

The reason and causes would have been various, from a simple matter to a complex one. For example : a simple onethe child didn’t want to study, the parents advising to study in a right way, bla.bla.bla and the child starts making reason, in a point when compromise didn’t meet its way , i am really sure, quarrel would be soon take place.

I think there’s would be a never ending list of reason, there’s always reason and causes.

the one thing i most disagree, why did this thing have to happen? in a place,, which is our last stronghold for hoping,to find peace and to live with it, to find guide and to live in guidance, to take/give love and to live in love, to live in a proper environment and etc. I can think through of this.why…

Maybe, in a near future, i’ll be soon having my own family, for what i think right now, i just want to avoid this thing. i hope i would, i hope i chould, and i should.

 

yellow card..

 

As i googling myself to find what yellow card really is, i’ve found this link, as usual it goes to wiki , thanks wiki and google too, (for being such a best friend to ask, you’ve always tell me what to know, when i ask any questions, without asking back, “what for ?heu..)

for all i know, yellow card is used when there is any foul occured or if there’s any misconduct by the player.

for comparison, let see some of the yellow card definition in various sport

• In football (soccer) ,

A yellow card is shown by the referee to indicate that a player has been officially cautioned. The player’s details are then recorded by the referee in a small notebook; hence a caution is also known as a “booking”. A player who has been cautioned may continue playing in the game, however a player who receives a second caution in a match is sent off (shown the yellow card again, and then a red card (see below)), meaning that he or she must leave the field immediately and take no further part in the game

• Australian rules football

A player committing a reportable offence may be shown a yellow card and temporarily suspended from the game

• Canoe polo

A yellow card indicates a player has received two minute temporary suspension

• Field Hockey

A yellow card indicates a temporary suspension. The length of the suspension is determined by the umpire

• and etc.

and there are the definition of yellow card for various sport,

now, how about giving yellow card in a non-sport , ?? is there any similarity within sports yellow card ?, and now, i’m being yellow carded,so what does it mean ?

 

sorry..

like a blowing wind

like a flowing river

like a swinging grass

like a hearing wall…

words i’ve heard, line i’ve taken, things i’ve thought , i’ve made a self-conclusion based on.

let me whisper, forgive me to do so, forgive me to say so, forgive me to feel so

for i cannot stand me, for i wont fight me.

anyway, it’s only a self certain opinion

 

contended or despondency

Curiosity begin to fullfil my thought, no..no.. it’s not curiosity, it’s more likely a restless thought, what i feared the most is my feeling is going to estuary to a deep despondecy, which i can’t afford.

am i being impertinent by having this desire,  if so, my impertinence is unavoidable. Am I being impertinent ?

this feeling of mine is flare up high, yearning of something that i dream of.

Is it wrong to feel this way ?
if this is wrong, which way is the right way . even if this is wrong based on what? Or this is just nothing is wrong is just me the moron one (it’s like a song I recall).

When I imagining things its worthless. Yes it’s true, I don’t need that, I need real thing.

Time, is it the only things that matter ? is it the answer? So what can time answer ? is it another factor? So what is it ?

Question after answer,…. Curiousity, anxiety, eventually that’s matters all the time.

And then the final question is repeated, when all of my question has it solution, will I be contented ? or is it going to estuary to a dep despondency.