Will..

and now actual poem that i’ve written in english,

I’ve done what should I’ve done
Reduction to my thought
One hope to right way
Right way to let go
So hard to
But have to
One thing in mind hard to forget
But life that I got
My life.
The time won’t stop
So is life
Life goes on
I have life, my own life
I have dream, my own dream
I have will, my own will
It doesn’t matter anymore
i have my will,
my own free will

(March 20th,  2004,)

 

tears of goodbye.

i have written this poem long time ago, and wrote it in Bahasa, i was thinking to translate it to English, and so i tried,.. and this is one of the poem.

tears of goodbye has dropped
memories are flashing
a moment become eternal
will it still be our story?
could it without tears
when i greet you

There’s time to say goodbye
parting soon be reality
without opportunity
it isnt the end
it’s only beginning
when we’re parting

when time goes by
wipe away the tears

waiting for the sun to rise
make your seeing and hearing

i’ll be back,,i’ll be back

with a change

(Cimahi, March 22nd 2004)

 

songs..

Listening to a song could be an experience, and it’s various.

it could emerging and refreshing, we could feel happy, extraordinary, even melancholic one.

and i thinks it depends on the tone, pitch , composition of the songs and of course its lyrics.

i think for common people like myself, lyrics has the biggest influence to drive the feeling, sense, taste, sensation, of ourselves , moreover when in a middle of a things.

the things, let’s say, it could be love, sympathizing on something, and etc.

oh , and it could saving people from killing themself, like the one in a movie “Yes Man”, the song by Third Eye Blind – Jumper, save the man and i like the song.

anyway for me, recently, songs also has its influence in my life, here are the list of songs :

1. Coldplay – Fix You
2. Maroon 5 – harder to breath
3. Andy Williams – Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head
4. Ronan Keating – When you say nothing at all
5. Avenged Sevenfold – Dear God
6. Radiohead – Creep
7. U2 – With or Without you

lyrics of the songs makes me wonder and think, i shouldn’t distressed, mourn more than it should be there’s still an option to choose, a path to walk, like the lyrics

Lights will guide you home,
.:: Coldplay – Fix You ::.

and home, where i want to be.there is always the best for me.

lament must be forbid, lets open my eyes, my mind and my heart,,

I never thought it would come to this
And i,
I want you to know
Everyones got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
.:: Third Eye’s Blind – Jumper ::.

maybe, i’ve passed this dark and stupidity,, nope.. it’s not stupidiy it’s a lesson, lesson that i’ve learned.

 

questions..

when someone asked me an important questions,

i just cant get it out of my head that easily, it stuck in there, round around, finding best possibilities, to overcome with.

my answers usually come with “it’s okay”, but i turns to be not okay.. it’s not okay, i can’t get rid of it out of my thought, it shadowing me, making me vulnerable, making me tremble, what if it really happening, the consequences is inevitable. Remorse and despondensy, arise to the surface.

telling it to someone isnt helping that much,… it just adding the tension to the table. Somehow it’s relieving though. (for temporary)

i cant stop it , neither can i slow it down, it flows, without realizing the direction of it,

is it a normal flow,?? or pressurized flow?

i cant overcome it, it is very far from what i’ve said, it’s so far.

can i stand it ?? can i get through it ? can i ?

 

make it simple..

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams!
Live the life you’ve imagined.
As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.

–Henry David Thoreau–

just make it simple as it is.. my friend used to tell me that, “make it simple”.. everything has its path.

have faith in any of the dreams. dream will come arise..

heu..

Just one, make it simple!!!

 

chess player

Avoid the crowd. Do your own thinking independently. Be the chess player, not the chess piece.

– Ralph Charell –

it is the way i should do, ? be smarter, be more agile, be more creative, think more and do more.

then again , must i really avoid the crowd. ??

the question is “could i really avoid the crowd?”

hmmm, be the chess player.. who moves the pieces wherever, whenever it takes.. okay then, get to it!!

 

unspoken

unspoken thought, soon will be forgotten,

that’s what i feel for the last few days, because of i didnt have the chance to speak it up , or i didnt make the chance, or maybe the chance didnt come to me,

and now time pass by, i really dont know, and dont sure, if i could to speak it up to the roof

my wish for this time being,…. is unspoken!!!

and again , maybe

The most profound statements are often said in silence.

–Lynn Johnston –

 

image

image —n. 1 representation of an object, e.g. a statue. 2 reputation or persona of a person, company, etc. 3 appearance as seen in a mirror or through a lens. 4 mental picture or idea. 5 simile or metaphor. —v. (-ging) 1 make an image of; portray. 2 reflect, mirror. 3 describe or imagine vividly.  be the image of be or look exactly like. [Latin imago imagin-]

That is what i get from oxford pocket dictionary.

Image, i take it as i am, who i’m supposed to be, let other to take their own perception, anyway, sometimes i don’t give a damn, i’m who i am whatever you think, does it mind me ? no at all,..

judgement didn’t come from pure thought, if anyone says contrary i could assume it’s only BS, judgement is taken from the past,

so i ask, didn’t someone have their own past?

as i read the dictionary , image mean reputation, mental picture. so, couldn’t it be change ?? some will answer it depends, depends on what ?? on whose standards ? on which standards?? on whose policy?? on whose judgement? who have the right for taking evaluation?? the judge? board of value ??

and i laugh. everyone has their image on their own , has the right to judge, has the right to have an opinion..

so what’s bother, huh..

what an egoistic writing , don’t i think so…

 

ask the people in the past

if they are still alive, and they’re all my friends, would have a place to ask, i would ask them questions .about their dream, how they face it, how they chase it and how they achieve it,

My compliment!!, i hope i can learn something from your trail of work and achievement

 

and it sailed

Haul the anchor!! engine at one third, heading north 026, sound the alarm. Aye captain!!!

and it sailed toward north, diesel engine wuffled, facing the cold wind, leaving the dock, crew waving their hand, hat, flag,

and the journey starts at 6.00 am on sunday, right before dusk, before sun to rise